Lately, this has been the case for me...
I´m on the last few days of my "payed leave" from work, and will become unemployed within a week.
Also due to a change of adress, I´ve been living in a slight chaos for a couple of weeks.
Now I´m on the last stretch of it, packing up the last boxes, getting things organised and curtains in the windows. And, the big thing: Cleaning out the old apartment.
This however gave me some real anxiety. I hate cleaning out old homes!
I just want to move on, let it go, not having to look back. But, no, I have to clean this discusting dustcovered place up first! Cleaning is also not one of my least favourite things in life, and I´m not good at it either. Many times I´ve had to redo cleaning of apartments cuz the landlord complained... :/
I have moved plenty of times in my life. 15 times to be precise. And the worst thing is, the chaos, and the cleaning... Wish I had money to pay others to do it for me, but no.. off course I dont.
I was talking to a friend this morning. Trying hard to stay positive and saying "its not much, I should be able to do it.." She saw through my angst, and offered to help me out!
So today, instead of cleaning for the whole day, we cleaned together for a couple of hours and then we went out for lunch (my treat off course)! Best cleaningday ever :)
Tomorrow we will meet there again and finish it off.
It all feels SO much better now!
Why dont I ask for help in the first place? I´m pretty bad at that one, thinking I have to manage myself all the time. I wonder why that is?
Maybe if I ask a little bit more for help, my life will be both easier, funnier, and I´ll have more friends, cuz I let them in!
Something worth thinking about..
